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needs dying all hard night feel you tight crop the wire cold child crop the ire dying oh grow up at night feel you tight as near as I cold child we dry soil, heartmill feel you and I high we die forever glaucoma on our eye plague to weather until they run dry ages of delirium curse of my oblivion I swell without a scar to end the time a shell without a star at the end of time watch the bend of my wandering of hunting with the lightning gun tremor on my heaven son tares above my kingdom come torn open tomb I fell in your cold fission bomb I fell in your war ages of delirium curse of my oblivion tremor on my heaven son tares above my kingdom come I search in snow, in vain for your footsteps trail I have to kiss them with my scalding tears until I see the ground bury me under ice smother me under the ice and snow please, extinguish me I'm waiting for this test to end for this test to end Hi, I'm loosing myself in you, high I'm loosing I've dived in it in wide you say all heartmill you will You made me smile with my heart You made me beg for admission cards You will never stay, in my home, on my way forlorn from today We have nothing more to share only air, that old breath All I pare off to a road as my goad into my grave One sear scratch is lying in the door falling on the floor All fleet snatch is laying waste my gore It will drop down on the floor You will never stay in my home, on my way forlorn from today We'll never find us again When I was a child I toyed with dirt an I fought as a child, I killed the slugs I bored with a bough in their spiracle when I was a child, pears pushed me hard in my head, in my neck, in my chest, in my waist, in my butt I still beg, please help me when I was a child I threw with dung as I fought as a child, I fucked all thugs and I bored with a bough in their spiracle when I was a child, foes pushed me hard in my in my neck, in my chest, in my waist, in my butt I still beg, please help me when I was a child I rend my tongue distraught as a child, I killed my thoughts and bored with a bough in my spiracle when I was a child, fears pushed me hard in my head, in my neck, in my chest, in my waist I never loved I still beg, please help me I bred a whore in my heart A stillborn child I gasp for - The devil into my spiracle I was a child, I was a child I was a child, I was a child I am a child I fell in love with you but I know that's just a sky I don't know where I go Grow tall skin, fold on They said: Rank the wall I say: Bad weeds grow tall Hold on skin They sai: Rank the wall I say: Bad weeds grow tall High I walk through a firewall Bad weeds grow tall Fall, fall Bad weeds grow tall Hold on skin, fold on They said: Rank the wall Bad weeds grow tall I see the sun She dawns She burns She grows She feeds She spews She dies above us and builds the shadows which faces myself She drives me into the black hole The doors open there The skin opens there I dreamed of you every day and every night Hart, immer, immer wieder, alles, ganz die Welt, alles, das ist Blut und das auch Vom Herzen raus? Ich weiß es nicht Den tauben Schlauch nach innen ganz ganz hinein, in die Mutter Das bisschen Haut, sie fährt über alles ganz egal, sie schmiegt sich, sie bohrt sich in jedes Loch, sie überlebt alles Den Todeskuchen backen; das Mehl ist aus Ich spucke aus. Vom Herzen raus? Dreck. Als Kind habe ich immer mit ihm gespielt und gedacht es sind kleine Pferde zerstampft habe ich sie dann haben sie gequietscht und hast du das gehört? Ich hab verloren Denn immer wenn ich sing sagen alle es wäre schlimm Niemand mag es wie ich sing Explosion dreht man um sich selbst Hass ich, Ich hasse es auch Ich bin so müde, wir könnten schlafen gehen Und was im Herzen? Seifenscheisse Scheisse, in die Welt geschissen Dreck Sie bleibt stecken, tot Haltet alle Uhren an hindert den Hund daran das Rad anzubellen Wo immer ich aufschlage find’ ich dich Du fällst im Schatten der Tage als Stille und Stich Ich trink’ auf dich dutzende Flaschen Wein und will doch viel lieber eine Made sein Der Sarg fällt zusammen die Blumen fallen in die Wangen Zuerst weiß, dann blau, dann grau, dann grün dann Schaum, dann braun und Laub und Staub Bitte schlag dich aus meinem Kopf, meinem Haus wie sonst halte ich den Graus aus? Mit welchem Herz, mit welchem Körper aus? Aus Wo immer ich aufschlage find’ ich dich Du fällst im Schatten der Tage als Stille und Stich Ich wart’ auf dich, wann kommst du wieder heim? Ich wollt’ noch nie lieber eine Made sein Eine Made sein Eine Made sein Eine Made sein Eine Mama Lass mich rein, rein, beinhart wie du sein lass mich in dein Aug’ hinein Ich will es seh’n, die Prüfung besteh’n ohne Pein, ohne Pein lass mich rein, du Stein Mir hilft kein Warten und kein Wein kein Schreien Um alles in der Welt, das dich am Leben hält zerschlag’ ich auch mein Himmelszelt auf dass es unter dir zusammenfällt und du dich neigst und du dich endlich wieder zeigst Cede to wash the knife and thy lust wants my hash life Hell won’t tolerate hymns You once seemed to love the tumbling of infarction the oddments of destruction the effort to stay: a blackmail decay Life lays in your heart like in a coffin Stop faking suffering like a child Bonds of silk and vows of lead weight in rotten milk - this was your feast plate Now all your veins burst all fears and wrongs Hell won’t tolerate hymns You once seemed to love the tumbling of infarction the oddments of destruction the effort to stay: a blackmail decay Life lays in your heart like in a coffin Stop faking suffering like a child Bonds of silk and vows of lead weight in rotten milk - this was your feast plate I thud on a drum barely a span long the rough barrel-beat was my cradlesong You ask why I keep still why I don’t pour it out into the night You know You know if it rises and floats It effaces every piece of light Foreign what my lips say Foreign my hair, my dress Foreign what your eyes ask about this strangeness You ask why I keep still why I don’t pour it out into the night You know You know if it rises and float It effaces every piece of light When scream masses on wound I want to meet you When the great testimony from your branches trickles down Here my soul grows ‘til it smashes above the scene, the balcony Sitting, staring, watching all you leave behind this There is nothing which has so much more to give I lost I lost you You’re putting down the memories as if a nothing has something more to give I lost I lost you Who beats the clock for us? Who was pretending us? Don’t scoff at us Still sitting, staring, watching how love had to live and no more things to give I lost I really lost you Forward tales to tide The boat turns toward the port With fire and mud stained sky Bright aft time Bright aft time My whole burden is laid down Stay here Stay here Stay Vacuum of god Gobbets of me wrapped in tissue through the side blow that had somehow slipped from you Vacuum of god and there you go I nursed you like a crown hanging upside down half of a bit, - drown My life weeping to your feet on gallows of love Tear a kiss into a lie of bliss Shouts with a voice you can't hear for what you can't bear from world's void juice emptied by words Vacuum of god and there you go From world's void juice emptied by words Why we can't be or see who cuts us asunder like a boor felling a tree you're the thunder going under over me Don't forget to pray to keep it away away from every day where you wonder why we can't be ... Trapped to fall into the self house, alone A jail immured by a wall in which no single sound feels home and the voice rather flees and the heartbeat leaks and the lighted mouth rather chokes than speaks |